Samhain at the Lair will be altered this year. Our altar is packed away 'til the house sells, our library is likewise boxed up and safely stowed in the storage unit, and our faerie circle (that they kindly let us use in the old backyard) is 15 hours away by car. Additionally, we're traveling to visit family on Friday, so we'll completely be out of even our new environment on Saturday night.
Facing the unfamiliar or the unknown, though, is what this particular Sabbat is all about. It is the one day in the Wheel that She asks us to face our fears, make peace with the past, and open to the possibilities that She offers to us. Doing so is, sometimes, much more frightening than any haunted house or slasher flick. It's facing the reality of "what is" rather than "how I wish it might have been"--it's quitting the second-guessing, self-doubt,and "what ifs" and opening to "just 'cause" being a viable answer. It's death and reconciliation and renewal. It's the reality of what our Path--regardless of focus--means.
There's been SO much change in our life this past Turning--a job change (and for my husband, a job stagnation as no one is currently hiring for full-time here in his area), a relocation, houselessness (though not "homelessness" as we have dear friends who've taken us in without hesitation)... Facing all of that and realizing that all was for a purpose...that, as one of my dearest friends keeps reminding me, "everything happens for a reason"...is a hard lesson. And, it's an ongoing lesson. On the day after Samhain,things are not going to magickally change or drastically improve. If I were to "encourage" such a change, goodness knows what harm I'd ultimately do!
Samhain is a powerful,relentless, and deeply personal Sabbat. It forces us to look within. It makes us acknowledge the darkness inside us and which surrounds us through the negativity of self-doubt and disappointment that is not seen for the educational opportunity offered. It's tough. And, it's exciting.
As the waxing Moonlight wraps us in Her embrace...
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